Friendship

So it's 2:16am currently in the UAE where I am on holiday. I am sat on my bedroom tiles near my bedroom door trying to catch the Wi-Fi in order to talk to my best friend, T, who's all the way back in England. This 3 hour time difference isn't stopping us. It never does. Whatever we're doing, wherever we are, I and T never fail to keep in contact. And in the process of writing up this post my Dad has turned off the Wi-Fi and now I can't sleep because I haven't said goodnight to T yet.. Therefore I will continue writing my first ever blog post in the hope of making it up to her because she'll definitely read it in the morning.

Mine and T's relationship is as second nature to us just as natural brushing your teeth every morning is. I start my day with her and she's also the last person I talk to before going to sleep. I don't think there has been a day I've had Wi-Fi or Internet in the past 3 years that we haven't spoken. As you've realised yes I am kind of obsessed with my best friend but I guess everyone is obsessed with someone in their lives, right? And we all do the littlest (or even weirdest) of things for that special person. Simply because you can't live without them. I don't even remember what I'd do all day when I didn't have social media and she wasn't my best friend. She's my rock and probably the second person whom I am the most closest to on this planet. For sure. First is my mother. Or maybe they tie first.. But let's not go off track. My point is, it is so weird how attached you get to someone so quickly and how different your life would be hadn't you met that person. There are 2 kinds of people in this world that you'll meet: those who teach you a lesson and those who are there to stay. And T is definitely the latter. My 13 year-old self wouldn't believe I'd be saying this at 18 since we didn't get on at all during the early years of high school. She thought I was a stuck up bitch and I thought she was way too popular and talented to be in my league. I didn't believe in the quote "all good relationships begin with hate" till T became my best friend. We met at such a crucial age where everyone is experimenting to find their identities and also trying their best to fit in especially in an environment like high school. I am who I am thanks to her. 

But when you're away it's that constant feeling of missing them that remains at the back of your head when you're away. It's thinking about what they'd be doing, if they'd eaten and when they'd be going to sleep or drinking coffee to stay up even longer like an idiot! Technology has made it oh so simple for us to contact someone at the click of a button. But still, seeing their face on your screen doesn't take away the fact that you're thousands of miles away from them and can't just make plans to see them the next few days. It's a human fault. We'll never be satisfied with what we get. But what's so good in living life satisfied anyway? To crave is to live. Your heart doesn't just beat hundreds of thousands times a day for you to give your life a satisfactory thumbs up and let it go on as it is. You aren't living if you're not wanting more. In all the right ways of course. I'm not talking about greed. I'm talking about the wanting of feelings. Like that one bungee jump people look forward to in their lives just to feel 30 seconds of adrenaline. Just like that, it's the feeling of a warm hug or kiss of a loved one that keeps us going. And you'll do the littlest or the biggest things to obtain it. After all, we're human. If we've been given feelings, they need to be felt. 

It is now 3am exactly and midnight in the UK. She’s probably awake but definitely time for me to sleep.